30 november 2020

[5:40 PM, 11/30/2020] J. Tan: I think we really need to have a break ., for now ..,I really feel struggling with u ., mayb we can just be friend for now ..,! Just did not wan to waste your time n mine too ., I really can’t commit into a relationship., [5:43 PM, 11/30/2020] J. Tan: U do need to change or do anything for me , it’s not for me , it’s actually for your own self! [5:44 PM, 11/30/2020] Xeronlee: sure [5:48 PM, 11/30/2020] Xeronlee: thanks for your decision , this is your choice and i will respect you , nothng is wrong , just follow your heart wish you good luck for your exam soon [5:49 PM, 11/30/2020] J. Tan: May we can be friend , than a partner , if u still wan to ., [5:49 PM, 11/30/2020] Xeronlee: if you feel comfortable just go ahead [5:49 PM, 11/30/2020] J. Tan: After the thought , I really feel I’m not really commit into a relationship., [5:55 PM, 11/30/2020] J. Tan: We are just not long together, how to have love actually?, I was wondering do I really love u or not , I also not sure , I just feel so stressed only ., 🤷🏽‍♀️ [6:00 PM, 11/30/2020] Xeronlee: agree for we just have short time to know each other now i know my clear direction what should i do no worries [6:01 PM, 11/30/2020] Xeronlee: focus on your exam THANKS FOR YOUR ANSWER !!! I WILL BE ALRIGHT

29 november 2020

今天和两位姐谈了心事，心情好多了，（平常心）为何我忘了这回事，我之前都有这样的经历，真的就算自己明白还是要靠别人的口中说出来才有效。 Recruiment agency 打来和我面试了，我突然没有感觉到紧张，反而还可以很顺利的表达出来。 offer from saudi name( majeed ) --800 dollar --contract 2 years --be head chef needed exprience --italian cuisine --frence cuisine --international cuisine 我应该开始自己的生活。。。 现在我的主要就是学好英语（不论任何手段），还有就是赚钱。。。 其他与我无关。。。 Don't insulting to china man...

28 november 2020

Already seven days to go , everyday keep hear conversation from youtube . i feel pain everyday and also not in mood at all to eat actually everytime chat with you i also feel stress , because i don't want to hurt you , you have a strong pride that's i feel anyway , i need to prepare what will coming soon today i already join english class online payment is $49.90

26th november 2020

[12:03 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: What happened??? I was praying [12:03 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Nevermind you just do your thing first [12:04 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Anything important?? [12:04 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: I haven’t settle it [12:04 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Script [12:04 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Then why u keep calling me ?? [12:05 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Nothing [12:06 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Anyway, this few days just let me be alone , I did not wanna talk , just not in a mood , let me be alone .., [12:07 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Ok [12:31 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: About me ? [12:35 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Baby [12:36 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Sorry [5:13 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Baby sorry [5:15 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Stop , no need keep saying sorry , I told u I just wanna be alone these days , so just let me stay alone [5:18 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: I didn’t know why you suddenly this happen , but I respect you Take care yourself [5:28 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Actually I still did not understand me at all , this is not suddenly, I wan a man that can depends on , not keep praising me always , I know ur English or communications problems , but I’m not good from the 1st also , but I keep improving myself n speak more , research more , keep improving myself , each time I speak with u , only a simple words u also don’t understand, but u did not also try search also wan me to explain n search for u , I’m not smart also , everything also im learning but I wan a man that I can depends on [5:29 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: I did not blame u , I’m trying to give myself times., if u think I’m important to u , I really hope u will improve yourself to be a man that I can depends on [5:31 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: This is what i feel [5:32 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: U did not wrong [5:32 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: U need one can protect u [5:33 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: So u are telling me that , u not gonna improve yourself for me right ?, u just wanna stay at this level ? [5:37 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: I did not wan to keep be an English teacher , I told u to download that apps to learn English , at least know how to communicates , simple English also , this is actually for your own goods not mine ., [5:38 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: U think I didn’t try all this before ? [5:38 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: If u wanna work professionally abroad , at least English communications a basic English is a must , if not are u really wanna be like last time in Australia be a house cleaner only ??? [5:38 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: I’m also not good at all before , but u keep watching English movie , I keep speak with peoples [5:39 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Mix with useful peoples , not , u are a man , but u always keep yourself at home , not socialize at all with useful peoples ., that can improve u ,. [5:39 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: So means u wanna tell me u wanna give up , u did not wan to improve for me right ?? [5:42 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Can i know what are you think [5:43 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: I just wan u think these days , don’t ask me again .., if u think I’m important to u , proves to me that I can depends on u as a man [5:43 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Don’t ever ask me again , I really hate a man keep asking me , which u don’t have any opinions ????? [5:44 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Ok I understand what are you want [5:45 AM, 11/25/2020] Baby Jackie Tan: Just don’t stressed me anymore, in these few days let me calm .. [5:51 AM, 11/25/2020] Xeronlee: Good night to you Don’t think about me make you stress I CAN'T FORGET THIS CONVERSATION , YEAH YOU ARE RIGHT , HONESTLY , I'M FEEL STRESS WITH YOU , YOU KEEP INSULTING ME BLAME ME SHOOT ME COMPLAINT ME , I DIDN'T FEEL ANY ENCOURAGEMENT FROM YOU , i'm sufferance

21 november 2020

十点四十九分睡了， 十二点起来了， 可是以发了一个好长的梦，打开眼睛还以为已经是早上了，谁知看了电话才十二点。。。 **实际上，如果您感到幸福并只想和您的廉价男人陪伴，那取决于您 **我像总是在壁你，但你似乎并不想真正地改善自己，你想，你甚至和我分享名字也无法买自己的房子，因为收入太低了 **我就像总是只推你，我感到自己也很烦和太糟糕了，继续推你但实际上你只是 你让我觉得我越来越配不上你，你要的我的确给不到你，别拿别人的经历来比较 我没有气，也许你不应该认识我，也许我毁了你的美好的将来。。。（美国） xeron is xeron 我都是在抱着当你后悔了，别伪造自己，勇敢做你想要的(follow to your heart)，Nothing is more important than what you want Currently what i have been done ? 不知不觉三点了。。。还没睡吗？？？ 睡吧！没什么大不了！！！